Stress does a body good (at least when you have a bunch of weight to lose). I've lost 2 more pounds in the past 5 days and swam 32 in 13:15 tonight.
I was completely freaking out earlier, with waves of nausea rolling over me every time I thought about what I was going to be doing for the next 2 days. My roommate Heidi asked if I had gotten a blessing. I said no. I never think of that. I know I should when I'm freaked out. We called a couple of people and this guy Matt came over (If you're reading, Hi, Matt!). I immediately felt better. And now when the panic starts churning again and my throat starts threatening to close, I just think of the words and think of the peace I felt, and the panic starts subsiding. Just breathe, Kelly.
San Fran Jenn called me tonight too and talked me down a bit. I am so lucky to have such great people in my life who want to make sure I'm okay!
I just want to get all mushy for a minute and say thanks to all of my friends and family who have been so supportive and understanding during the past couple of months. It's been so wonderful to know that I have so many people pulling for me. I can feel your thoughts and prayers buoying me up as I alternate between needing to scream and needing to have a good cry. Please keep sending those good thoughts my way tomorrow and Thursday!
Also, I want to thank the Bar bloggers for the support. I was just talking with my mom about it yesterday morning. It has been pretty impossible to take much time to hang out with friends, especially over the last 2 weeks. I've been holed up in my apartment, studying all day long, and if not for my intermittent hops onto the internet to see what you all were doing, I think this process could have really driven me crazy.
I have used your acronyms and laughed at your jokes. Today, most of you have already started the exam and my thoughts and prayers are with you all. I'll be right there with you for the MBE tomorrow. We've all worked hard and stressed and gotten really goofy. I hope you all keep dropping by my blog so we can keep up with each other. I know I'll still be reading about you. And we can have a giant blog party in November after we all pass!
Thank you, everyone!
Hugs and kisses,
Kelly
2 comments:
Good luck. you'll do great!
From far away, feel my hands gently on your head as I bless you with strength to use all your intelligence; and that the Spirit will be with you and all your kindred bar-takers during the coming exam. You have prepared with diligence, and you will be uplifted. Know that you are loved and prayed for by many, many people, and let that knowledge bring you calm confidence. You are a child of God, who loves you and will help you in any trial. You will prevail.
Bless you.
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